Sunday, May 18, 2008
Meditated thoughts ...
For awhile Morgan's mummy seemed to have fallen out of love with blogging.
Not right - this blog is not yet dead! ;)
Its only gone into hibernation ... pause mode ... standstill ... all because I took time off, to step back, take stock and reflect on everything that was going on in my life. Having gone home to support family through 2 funerals and meeting up with loved ones, had etched a more memorable yet crushing experience than I expected. I'd left the bright lights and big city. I left a wonderful circle of friends who knew me all my life. I felt a sudden displacement returning to the UK. It felt painful but at the same time perhaps its all a necessary... rite of passage?
Not right - this blog is not yet dead! ;)
Its only gone into hibernation ... pause mode ... standstill ... all because I took time off, to step back, take stock and reflect on everything that was going on in my life. Having gone home to support family through 2 funerals and meeting up with loved ones, had etched a more memorable yet crushing experience than I expected. I'd left the bright lights and big city. I left a wonderful circle of friends who knew me all my life. I felt a sudden displacement returning to the UK. It felt painful but at the same time perhaps its all a necessary... rite of passage?
When I think back from the time I came to the UK, so much has happened every year. The journey began with me learning to teach, getting work, getting married, and becoming mum to Morgan !! All these wonderful things hadn't just happened overnight but strange to say for closer friends who knew me ... it wasn't a route most expected me to take. I suppose I ventured beyond myself with every turn of decision-making. Planning ahead and taking on grown-up responsibilities was certainly not my style hence I somehow surprised my own mother at the way I am coping.I can totally understand how a "stay-at-home mum" can be especially daunting for the 21st-century urban woman like myself. Although I have the liberty to be at home my time is tied to caring and looking after Morgan. I constantly look for new and interesting things to show him and help him learn about the world. Its no wonder I feel the lack of energy or interest for anything else at the end of the day. The job of a mother is one of the most underrated in the world ... its alot of hard work, gets no praise nor pay, and can be so mundane and routine. For a while I so envy my married friends in Singapore who have maids and extended family to help care for their children while they juggle double-income salaries and spend luxurious "couple time" with their other halves on weekends and getaways. Or even more so ... those who are still single and care-free, or without children. However my freedom to govern my own independence is to be treasured and I strongly believe that it can mould and hold the family together. I learn to make my own time, organise resources and solve problems - all of which are essential life skills to have.
I guess I am mainly thankful for 2 things -
1. my hubby the involuntary breadwinner and,
2. broadband - what would I do with my life without it?
Anyway, cut back to updates ...
1. Morgan celebrated his 2nd birthday where grandma baked him a chocolate sponge cake layered with marzipan of a choo-choo train (of course!) specially hand-cut by mummy.
2. Morgan, the trainspotter .. and his daddy checking out the train arriving at Aberystwyth station last weekend.
I have begun to link up with Picasa Web Albums so that my page is not overloaded with pictures - its neat I like! Although it has limited web space, it could still hold up to something like 500 pictures in any album which is a lot.
Anyway so much for now ....
